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Respite for the aged heart [Jul. 1st, 2009|06:06 pm] [ Tags | bunburying, i am fandoms bitch, pirates and the like ] [ Current Location | The Wazz ] [ Current Mood | relaxed ] [ Current Music | heater noises ] So I'm at me mum's house...and I'm relaxing. And I bought some DVDs with me to watch. And... OMFG HOW MUCH DO I LOVE PIRATES!?!?! I literally squee'd out loud when the Black Pearl menu started. :D So I'm a thinkin' I might start writing fic again. I just spent the last hour reading some old ones. Hell- I need fandom again, all this running your own business thing...it wears a girl out. Link 16 comments|Leave a comment

I like plus signs, they make even the most boring whine look positive. [Jun. 26th, 2009|03:43 am] [ Tags | apathy is the new make over, get over it, i want i want i want, it's not as bad as all that ] [ Current Mood | comfortably numb ] [ Current Music | in-brain radio ] + I want to grow things. In the garden preferably, not...growths on me. :/ Just putting herbs in the garden and watching them not die has been very satisfactory, but I'm ready for more now. Unfortunately it's the middle of winter (where the FUCK did Autumn go?!) and I really only get an express desire for this sort of thing at 4am, while looking at permaculture blogs. + I am very worried that I will not have the money necessary for being in England in December. I only have 600 saved and I need new glasses, and some old bills need to be dealt with, and the tooth doctor will need to be called upon...do passport renewals cost money? Do visas? Should I not be doing all that shit now? Prolly. This further causes me to worry that not only will I not have the money, I don't seem to be able to motivate myself to work for the result. Can't even get a carrot-on-a-stick from the horrid realisation that since we are in the middle of winter, that means spring is but a tick-tock away, and spring means summer. AND I HATE SUMMER. I don't want to be anywhere near it. I want to be in Jolly Old, freezing my tits off and watching everyone eat chips. THAT is living, not hiding from volcanic death glare. Does anyone from the UK want to trade places with me? Melbourne's really nice- seriously. + I've been trying to go to bed earlier (as you can see form the posting time here...4am). The last few weeks have been really bad, I've not been sleeping till quite early in the am. It's not unusual for me to be sighing at the clock as '6am' glows happily at my face. It is unusual for it to happen in the cold weather though. Usually I'm quite balanced in the winter. I may have a solution- hippy globes. You know those twirly things we're all being forced to use now. As an aside, it's the recycling of energy use- recycling makes you feel all smooshy inside that you're doing something good for the planet by sending your old crap off to be made into new crap. But it would be preferable to not have crap at all. Reducing package consumption is never going to be successful until people are given smaller recycling bins or reminded that just because it can be recycled, doesn't mean you shouldn't re-think purchasing it. The same goes for hippy globes- they make everyone think it doesn't matter if you forget to turn the light off, because it's a green bulb, it's not using much. Would it not be better to just let people use ordinary bulbs again and teach them to turn the light off? Probably not, but I just don't like hippy globes. The lighting is weird. Also you can't dim them, so now our lounge room is like staring into the sun. To bring me to my original whine, I think having the bright lights has kept me up longer. That and the fact that this lounge is often filled with the noise and movements of 3 people and a toddler (who is usually loudly refusing to go to bed/eat his dinner/stop hitting the cat/share/etc like all 3 year olds) and this generally stops me from getting anything done in the concentration department. When everyone has gone to bed, I get this wash-over calm that I'm alone, it's quiet, it's low-lit...I can concentrate now. I only just figured this out today. + I've concluded through a massive (6 pages) re-evaluation of my life in my paper journal the other day that I'm pretty much not happy with my life right now, at all. But I'm positive about it, because recognising I'm not happy and writing giant lists of ways to improve it is a good start. I love writing lists. + I promise I have not come back to LJ just to whine. Next post will be full of my usual child-like enjoyment of the simple things. Link 21 comments|Leave a comment

*dusts off LJ* [Jun. 20th, 2009|03:33 am] [ Tags | crypticness is good for you, etsy, howdy stranger, tell me something ] [ Current Location | Greensy ] [ Current Mood | calm ] [ Current Music | the hum of pre-dawn silence ] I haven't been around much, but don't panic, I'm not dead. Just...resting. And crafting. And thinking. And planning. But you guys are important to me and I haven't been here, so I'm making an effort to come back to you. However my flist is now 34090349034 pages long so I can't read it all. If something awesome, shitty, fantastic or just plain loopy happened to you and you think I should know...let me know! But good GOD DAMN I miss seeing that icon... Link 35 comments|Leave a comment

I need twelve thousand CC's of therapy, stat. [May. 11th, 2009|08:37 pm] [ Current Mood | anxious ] Every now and then for no reason that I can account for, I get this feeling, I don't know what it is, the only way I can describe it is a kind of insistant reclusiveness. it's like the opposite of lonliness- I just want everything and everyone to go away and I can shut myself in the house and be with me and no one else. It's nothing to do with the fear I sometimes have of outside- i don't really have that much anymore now anyway, in fact I've done a 180 and now have a compulsion to go outsdie and go everywhere and do things and meet new people and be a part of the community. But then this comes along, and if I can't find a way to enforce the isolation I get quite upset- tearful and moody. I had it overcome me this afternoon while staying at mum's place. I was at the library and the urge overtook me, so I just walked home and was so looking forward to being by myself, but I wasn't. I had visitors when I got home and then half an hour later my mum came home with her friend's 12 year old who loves me and clings to me like a barnacle when she sees me, and they were staying in and cooking tea here instead of going to her house and I just...built a plate of steel around myself. I didn't see anyway of escaping human interaction- so I made it obvious I didn't want them there and Mum took the hint and left. I'm grateful she understood- at least I hope she did. I can tell her tonight when she comes home, but it wan't easy with a room full of people and a 12 year old hanging off me to say 'excuse me everyone, I'm having a social panic attack and need to be left alone for the night, so nothing personal but please all fuck off.' It's never easy to explain this to people- if you tell them straight you're having an anxiety attack they get all concerned like you want to be alone to break the room and kill yourself, or they take it personally when you make bold moves to get them away from you. But it's nothing personal, barely ever. And no matter how close I am to you it won't change it. In fact there's only one person I know whom I'm happy to have around when I'm feeling like this. And I barely ever see him. The other 2 things I'm really worried about lately is my constant movement and energy (good thing ordinarily, but this is literally giving me debilitating headaches) and my total erosion of my affectionate character. I don't feel any legitimate closeness to anyone, I don't like being hugged for no reason- I'm coping with hello/goodbye hugs because I don't want to end up being someone who doesn't like to be touched. Which is at present and in this context, my worst fear. Again, the person mysteriously mentioned above is the only exception to this. Link 9 comments|Leave a comment

Penthouse deck, plz. [Apr. 28th, 2009|12:34 am] [ Current Mood | calm ] [ Current Music | Mario Bros in my head. Doo! Doo! ] I was in a magazine today! The Summer issue of Artful Blogging features a 7 page spread of my little Bloggery art world. Two more images reside under the cut, because LJ's image hosting is no where near as superior as Blogger's. ( In you go. B I G pictures, be ye fairly warned. ) O.K. now I'm famous. *buys Colin Firth* Also, I'm thinking of getting a Twitter because I'm famous of all the incredibly interesting things that occur to me at random intervals whilst online. This is a lie. No Twit. I have enough to do without cataloguing the minutiae of my brain. That's what LJ is for! Link 25 comments|Leave a comment

I R BACK [Apr. 19th, 2009|03:03 am] [ Current Mood | determined ] Thanks muchly everyone for your help with the flower post support. It's all sent off now (OMFG I JUST WROTE TO JAMES FUCKING MAY OMG FANTIME) so I can stop thinking about it. Which will be nice, because it's so damned preoccupying! I can't believe preoccupying is spelled like that. o_0 English, you is one crazy language! As of further note, I've decided to spend more effort on your chaps here in LJ land. I don't give you the attention I one did and you deserve it, because you're a sweet bunch of peeps. So- I've seen a few Flisters do 'what I gots dun today' lists and I'd like to have a go at posting them too, since I currently have an obsession with using my time to it's full capacity. I am constantly harassing myself about slacking off and not doing anything with my time, to the point where I being to yell at myself for sitting around when I'm actually sewing. WORKING, BRAIN. STOP TELLING ME OFF LEAVE ME ALONE. Anyway- what I've done in the last 24 hours: - dyed a bunch of stuff dark brown, including clothes for me - finished two necklaces - finished a wrist cuff - Listed 4 things on Etsy - sorted out my giant button stash into 'ace' and 'backup' buttons, which makes looking for buttons easier because I only have ace buttons in the box, and the backups are in a jar. I shall also now furnish you with some random photos of recent bits. ( under teh cut, because they big. ) I also am re-reading this book by Barbara Sher (same author as Wishcraft, my motivational bible) in a further attempt to fit more into my hours and do less slacking. (I am fully aware BTW that I probably don't slack as much as I think I do, but it's nice to be able to prove it to myself and get shit done at the same time.) Anyway- I read this last night, and it really struck home: "Nobody makes you go after a dream. It's not like doing your schoolwork or paying your rent. No one is waiting for you to realise all your talents. You're on you're own. Fulfilling your own potential, realising your gifts, these are the only things in our culture that are left entirely to you." And it's true. You can have the biggest passion in the world, and all the support you could possibly need, but in the end it doesn't really affect anyone else if you don't end up achieving your life's dream. It won't make THEIR life any less of a place to be, it will only impact on YOU. If you don't grab your dream, you're the only one who will suffer. It struck home in a very direct way- no one is going to do this for me. If I want to make a living making art, I have to do the work. No one is going to come along and do it for me, they have their own shit to work on. I think I've known this for some time, but nothing has really hammered it into me like this. And then I thought about what older people used to say when I was a kid- 'you don't get something for nothing.' I used to think they were wrong, but now I think they're right. You don't. EVERYTHING in life that you want requires some kind of hard work, and some kind of sacrifice- good or bad. If you want to make a living from your art, you've got to make it and sell it and promote it and show it. If you want to publish a book you've got to write and write and send out copies and find publishers- if you want to self-publish you need to track down a printer and binder. If you want to be a rock star you gotta learn guitar. So yeah. I think that's it. Oh I'm wanting to be more vegetarian again, I eat waaaaaaaaaaay too much chicken. And fish. I want to care more about the world and my impact on it again. I want to BE OUT in the world. I'm tired of being afraid of the big bad world. I don't want to sit inside and ignore it all anymore, there's so much wonderful stuff out there and I want it. And because the universe has a great sense of humour, I cam across this image on someone's LJ just now: Damn right. Link 7 comments|Leave a comment

flowers! [Apr. 17th, 2009|01:21 am] Okay chaps- I know I never post but here's what's going on in my life right now. I'm making plasticine flowers for James May because he can't. Details for them that wants 'em, right now I just need you all to read this and tell me it makes sense! DOO EET. PLZ. ( hey! I can make that semi-realistic looking plasticine lily type flower thing if I follow this tutorial! I will WIN EVERYTHING! ) Link 29 comments|Leave a comment

Anniversary of me [Apr. 6th, 2009|02:57 am] [ Current Location | not the tank museum ] [ Current Mood | awake ] [ Current Music | Queen in my head- how do they all fit? ] I has dun a birfdae! It were a good 'un too. + slept in till 2pm. + had a cooked breakfast done up for me + wore my favourite skirt and my best button-sided steampunk boots + went to the antique shop and bought Victorian sewing notions and a box with a ship on it with tattered cream silk insides. + Was cold enough to put on a cardigan AND socks (Don't worry, it hasn't gone to my head.) + Played with my new digital camera + had cake and will do so again tomorrow. + Played Super Mario Galaxy till I was dizzy (Bloody stupid candy galaxy! You're so pretty and so impossibly wack!) + started the faery shop on Etsy. It was nice of the Tank Museum in Dorset to hold a special event day for my birthday. Of course the official excuse was the 70th anniversary of the formation of The Royal Armoured Corps but considering my Grandfather was a captain of the Queens own regiment, that's a pretty thinly disguise! I mean they even had James May do an ad for it, as if they weren't obvious enough already that it's a day JUST FOR ME. Thanks guys, but you forgot to fly me over there and pick me up from the airport in the armoured Rolls!! (Better let James drive, he's a Rolls expert after all.) Next time please get it right. "Over 20 tanks taking part in live action displays in our impressive new arena." !!!!!!!!!!! *cries and wants to go to the tank day thing because she deserves it even though it's halfway across the world and already over* But it has still been a good birfdae. "See a British Army section attack – complete with blank firing weapons and pyrotechnics." *sniff* good birfdae. good. Link 14 comments|Leave a comment

Shameless self-promotion [Mar. 29th, 2009|12:04 am] [ Current Location | snotsville ] [ Current Mood | snuffle headed ] [ Current Music | telly ] Click the picture to go to my shop! In other news, Yahoo mail is a douche bag. Oh my name is Yahoo, I want to be all grown-up and cool like Gmail...I will change myself! There!! Now when you refresh me, I shan't listen! And when you go through your email I shall magically transport you to a random email, waaayaaaay back in the portals of your inbox...! ooooooooooooooh..... Also, I hate being sick. I'm far too whingey about it. Link 7 comments|Leave a comment

will it always be twenty to nine? [Mar. 25th, 2009|03:19 am] [ Current Mood | restless ] errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg...communication. Not my strong point lately. Bullets- the answer to everything! + One year etsyversary coming up in two days- I LOVE ETSY + stomach better now- I went back to my old dosage on the epilepsy medication and I was right as rain in no time. Still a little off some things- not interested in pasta, or fish and chips, but okay with most other things. It was seriously getting to the point where I didn't want anything. Tonight though I ate two huge bowls of soup and 2 toasted sandwiches in one sitting, then downed a cup of tea, 2 cokes and a chocolate donut. And I'm hungry again. Like, belly pinching hungry. 0_0 + I bought men's underwear because they were grey with black skulls and spiderwebs on them, and girls undies are always candy coloured with baby whore mottos on them. MENS UNDERPANTS ARE THE MOST COMFORTABLE THINGS EVER. + Think about going to England every single day. <3 + Am reading Bleak House properly, finally! Best.book.ever. I'm also trying to win a nice copy of A Christmas Carol on eBay- even though it's sad and depressing in parts (Dickens? Sad?! NFW!) I still love the way it's written. + Am thinking about getting a job. Yeah, a real one, out of the house and everything. I reckon I can do it if I try. And if not, I can have fun trying to get fired. + Not good with communication and emotions lately, I feel distant from everything. I'd talk about that but I'm feeling rather apathetic about it all, not surprisingly. :) + I had a 'manic attack' yesterday, first time in ages. This is what I call a panic attack that isn't fear and crazy, it's just a short burst of intense energy that causes me to try to control my environment in an extreme way. It's nearly always cleaning, with the focus of throwing things away. I have too many things in my room, I'm not attached to half of it. Alot of it is ebay crap I need to pull my finger out and photograph to sell and make money, but no one seems to be buying much lately. Possibly due to eBay's sudden 'we're forcing you to use our new ugly look now' system. Anyway, yes. I'm getting rid of stuff. Alot of it. I'm trying to make as much art/craft as I can so that when I'm getting rid of something I'm making money at the same time. Always a plus. + ummmmmmm...what else. Stuff. I have new steampunk boots, they rock. I like liquorice flavoured hard candy. Orange has stopped offending me as a colour. The guy who lives next door to us collects vintage Mercedes'. His newest darling is plum red- I want it so badly. Vintage cars are better than new ones, AND I DON'T CARE WHAT ANYONE SAYS, JAMES MAY. I do still love you though. :) Link 3 comments|Leave a comment

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Charlie's on the Wire!! [Feb. 27th, 2009|08:33 pm] [ Current Mood | amused ] hey kids! it's time for an obvious marketing survey cleverly disguised as a pointless meme!! Scrumped from fragileshell 100 Truths 1. Last beverage→ Coke 2. Last phone call→ erm...jesus I can't even think. I don't do telephone much. 3. Last text message→ About a month ago, but I was so slow at it by the time it was done we got to the house of the person it was meant for! XD 4. Last song you listened to→ Gorillaz DARE 5. Last time you cried→ er? Can't remember, which is prolly not good as you need to let these things out now and again. HAVE YOU EVER: 6. Dated someone twice → What is this 'dated?' thing? I've taken a boy out to dinner several times with the pre-meditated intent of making him like me more, that counts I think. 7. Been cheated on? → No. Well, yes- no, but yeah but no but see what it was was was that I was in love with someone I lived with and our other house mate was all 'pat pat I'll stand by you and keep you upright' yadda yadda and then she started sleeping with him- and did the 'pat pat' thing all the while. So in a sense that someone was deceiving me secretly...yes. 8. Kissed someone & regretted it? → No, not at all. I don't do that sort of thing- regretting. Not on the romance stakes anyway. 9. Lost someone special? → You're asking an emotionally distant person the wrong question. Assuming family doesn't count...no. 10. Been depressed?→ OH HAI THAR 11. Been drunk? → OH HAI THAR every bar in town LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLORS: 12. Brown 13. White 14. Grey IN THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends → Yes! (and no I don't mean found a new TV show, I'm trying to not have that count as 'making new friends' because y'know- they can't see me and all that.) 16. Fallen out of love → With certain portions of my life, yes- but not with any persons. 17. Laughed until you cried → oh hell yes. 18. Met someone who changed you → Well I haven't met me (yet) but they've changed me. 19. Found out who your true friends were → I knew that aaaaaaaaages ago. 20. Found out someone was talking about you → Everybody talks about me, baby..! 21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → Nope. *notes down on things to do list* 22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life → ...Eight? *hides from potential forgotten people* 23. How many kids do you want to have→ eh- the jury's out on that one. Right now I'm not interesting in physically having any, but I will 'aquire' 2-6 at some point. Somehow. 24. Do you have any pets → Kitty! 25. Do you want to change your name→ No, not anymore. I have alot of people who call me Sparrow and that's good enough for me. I wouldn't actually mind going back to being called Penelope. 26. What did you do for your last birthday→ I went to see an interactive play of The Importance of Being Ernest, where upon I won at Croquet and danced with an Edwardian chap! :D 27. What time did you wake up today → 1:45ish in the PM. And lady- that's early for me! 28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Watching Moonlighting. <3 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → DECEMBER OMFG UK HERE I COME 30. Last time you saw your father → About a month ago. *shame* 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → Moar ca$h. 32. What are you listening to right now → Japanese girls 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → ..y-yes. What an odd question. 34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → Having to post-process all the photos I take for eBay (which is alot) because I'm so bloody pedantic. And the amount of money I spend on daily nothings. 36. Whats your real name → Elly-May Trunkle. 37. Relationship Status → On the market, as it were (to 35yo+ greying British gents who have a lot of woolly jumpers in their wardrobe.) 38. Zodiac sign → Aries/Tiger 39. Male or female→ female unit. 40. Primary school → Yes, I enjoyed it. 41. High school → Yes, I enjoyed most of it. 42. Higher education → yes, I farking loved it. 43. Hair color → Wed. 44. Long or short → Looooong- it's down to my butt now! :D 45. Height → Not as tall as James May, taller than Richard Hammond. 46. Do you have a crush on someone? → ...I have a shortlist. 47. What do you like about yourself? → It would be easier to say what I didn't like. ME = WIN. 48. Piercings → Been and gone, unless we count the smartarse 'ears' response. 49. Tattoos → All on paper (working on it!) 50. Righty or lefty → Lofty FIRSTS : 51. First surgery → Heart surgery- oh yes, I don't do things by halves! 52. First piercing → Labrete (between the lower lip and the chin) 53. First tattoo → will be a medieval-style skull n crossbones to remind me I died once. Or a small banner that says 'take your pills'. 54. First best friend(s) → Nicole (she's a horsey girl now, I still see her occasionally.) 55. First sport you joined → Joined? I was a hurdle champion in Primary School if that counts. 56. First pet → Peefer my kitty. 57. First vacation→ wtf kind of weird question is this, I don't remember! Let's say Ballarat. 58. First concert → AEROSMITH BITCHES! 59. First crush→ Captain Hook. XD 60. First alcohol drink→ Fosters. XD I was only 18 months if that excuses me. RIGHT NOW: 61. Eating → salami sandwich! 62. Drinking → Coke 63. I'm about to → do my ebay photos 64. Listening to → Beethoven! :D 65. Waiting for → dinner XD YOUR FUTURE : 66. Want kids?→ We went over this up there, didn't we? I will have some, just not from my belly. Probably. 67. Want to get married? → Eh- the ceremony/reception is fun to plan, but I don't care if I get the paper or not. 68. Careers in mind? → Artist (hai im doin that!), Costume Designer, Antique shop owner. WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? 69. Lips or eyes → eyes 70. Hugs or kisses → HUGS! I'm not that into kissing. 71. Shorter or taller → TALLLLLLLLLLLER. Always better. 72. Older or Younger → Older. By at least 5 years. 73. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic. I don't care much for spontaneity, I like routine- I like boys that do the same thing regularly, it's comforting. Romance is important though, if you don't got that you don't got nuthin. 74. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arrrrrrrrrrrrrms omg arms I love them. I have NO interest in flat bellies. The only six pack you need is in the fridge! 75. Tattoos or piercings → Tattoos. 76. Sensitive or loud → How is this opposites? Sensitive. Despite my initial attraction to loud boys, it's a real turn off if they turn out to be insensitive jerks. Its the sensitive jerks I like. :D 77. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship. I'm too lazy for short-term, all that work and now you're leaving? Fuck that. 78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Hesitant, those awkward unsure boys are so darling. WTF- who actively WANTS a trouble maker? "Excuse me sir, would you care to step over here and make my life a complete hassle? Thnx." HAVE YOU EVER : 79. Kissed a stranger → Yes. 80. Drank hard liquor → HAHHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA. 81. Lost glasses/contacts → Yes. I lost my glasses in the water- I had to wear them in because of the jellyfish problem, then a big wave came at me, then I got drowneded. 83. Broken someone's heart → I hate that this is probably yes. :/ 84. Had your own heart broken → Yes, a great many times by too many people. 85. Had a car accident? → No- I have magic. 86. Turned someone down → Yes, all the FREEKIN time. 87. Cried when someone died → WHAT kind of question is this. Maybe 'cried when someone you don't personally know died' -that would be a more better good inquiry. 88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → -________________________- DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89. Yourself → Yep. 90. Miracles → Hmm... no, but I do believe the universe knows how to weave the web. 91. Love at first sight → Yes, though I prefer to look at it as attraction at first sight. 92. Heaven → No. It's a quick stop for re-fuelling and then on to the next life! 93. Santa Claus → No. 94. Kissing on the first date? → Again with this date thing- yes. 95. Angels → Sort of but not really- not in the Christian sense. I believe in faery, and beings of light. I find it odd though that halfway through typing that, I brushed my shirt and my angel-shaped brooch caught on my hand. XD XD ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → *shifty face* Mehbeh... 97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → N/A 98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? → Yes, but probably not in the context you mean. I don't believe people were meant to have one mate and not deviate from them the entire time. Having said that, I am perfectly happy to engage in it if that's what my partner wants. I'm flexible! Literally. *waggles eyebrows* 99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? → Excluding non-essentials like air and food and blood and stuff? Okay...dork-mode on but...love. 100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Every word is hand-on-heart. Pretty much. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Also in the news this week- + saw a man with an eyepatch + bought extra-deep pie tins so we can make proper pies, not those shallow bits of nothing that don't give you more than a snack worth of pie love + Experimented successfully on a new method for my artwork + Realised just how much crap I have to put on eBay. Random question for today ---> If you went around gathering up all the abandoned clothes around town, how long would it take you to get a whole outfit together? (Your shoes don't have to match.) Link 9 comments|Leave a comment

They have movement and I see a lot of purple. [Feb. 23rd, 2009|02:37 am] [ Current Mood | sleepy ] [ Current Music | telly ] I fail for you guys, don't I? I haven't updated here in a trillion space ages. I actually had to go back over my journal to see what I was doing last time! XD What I'm doing different now to then- I live in Melbourne now. The country wasn't working out for me; I loved the house, I love living with Phoebe, but the town I was living in...GACK. Every time I went up the street (which wasn't often) I'd encounter people shouting/swearing/fighting/throwing beer bottles. not fun. Yes the thrift shops are awesome, but I can go down there now and then, strip them of their awesome and come home again. I decided generally (I can't remember if I told you this already) that I realised the country isn't what I want it to be. I want it to be the place of my childhood, with a sugar-coating of Wind in the Willows style charm. I want rolling green hills and blackberry picking and quiet clean air and big run-down Georgian mansions. I want the freedom I had when I was a kid, to just wander around in my own head. I'm not getting any of those things in the country any more, it's too full of strangers. Noisy, angry, drunken strangers who stare at you and throw beer bottles at each other in the street. So anyway- here I am in Melbourneland. It's the very business so far, and I haven't missed the country at all. Possibly because I have the glory of England to look forward to. December sits in the near future, twinkling it's little British lights at me in a way Christmas never could...saying 'save your money! I will be yours!!' (I'm fully aware that in the right parts of it there are also noisy, angry, drunken strangers who stare at you and throw beer bottles at each other in the street, but I don't care. They will be shouting abuse in their amusing accents and that will make all the difference. Besides, I'm not letting a few Asbos tell me what country to enjoy being in!!) Saving -I am trying to. I've had to pull 200 out of my savings to deal with moving expenses which I was a titch annoyed about but these things happen. It's sensible to wait till all these traily things are paid for till you really start saving anyway. Besides, my savings account is doing not-so-bad on account of all the eBay listing I am doing- boy do I sweat over that place! But getting rid of crap I don't want and getting money in return is awesome good. I'm still selling things on Etsy as well, so that goes in there. I'm keeping an eye out for the biggest map of London I can find- so far I've not found one big enough at all! I want a poster-sized one that I can stick up on the wall, and an A-Z notebook to note down places worth seeing and why. Basically I'm making up a special A-Z of London just for me (I'll have one o' dem Lonely Planet or Pilot Guide thingies as well). Perhaps you know of something cool to see in London, or even in greater England? Being Australian and living in such a massive country as I do I don't have qualms about travelling to places, in fact I love that crap. I'll be getting around to visit everyone anyway. So let me know what's good to see! I'm not doing any of the usual tat. NO LONDON EYE FOR ME! I do plan to see the V and A again though, and this time I will not get lost! What else. Tummy problems- my appetite has gone funny. I'm trying to compile a list of foods I like, foods I'm fussy on and foods that make me feel ill to think about them in order to find some sort of pattern. My over-riding desires pretty much centre around chicken, boiled potatoes, sushi and milk. Not all at the same time obviously, but I could happily eat just that and not complain. I've gone right off alot of things I ordinarily love- pasta, sausages, pumpkin and sweet potato, yoghurt. I feel ill thinking about fish n chips. *cries* The highest shame- I don't even care that much for pies right now. PIES FOR BLOODY HELL'S SAKE. WHAT IS WRONG WITH PIES!?! NOTHING. I hate being fussy. I love food, I love being able to eat it if I love it. But most of it just makes me feel physically ill to look at. I'm even feeling queasy looking at the list! D: I don't actually get sick from eating food, I just feel sick thinking about most of it. I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't really know what to do about it apart from just carry on eating nothing but chicken, potatoes and sushi! Help me Obi-Wan friend's list, you're my only hope. Apart from self-diagnosing via the internet and going to some sort of nutritionist/naturopath, which I could afford I suppose if I took it out of my savings... *grumble* Bring on the random idea spewing! Link 19 comments|Leave a comment

Dubya Tees [Feb. 17th, 2009|07:23 pm] [ Current Mood | CRAZY PILLS ] You see this icon I am using? Do you know what it is? Because I don't. I've never seen it before- it's supposed to be a lolcat, but as you can see IT IS NOT. Why is it that some of my icons are not actually the picture I uploaded? WHY LJ I DO NOT PAY MONEY FOR THIS Link 15 comments|Leave a comment

Not on fire [Feb. 9th, 2009|03:45 pm] [ Current Mood | touched ] Just a little requested update to let you all know- I'm fine and have not burned down! Apparently the news of our terrible fires (so imaginatively called Black Saturday- I vote for 'feb firefest 09' myself) has reached international ears. So I'm just letting those of you who worried that it's okay- I'm okay! My friends and family are all largely alright, albiet a little smoke damaged. Mum was evacuated from her town after the wind blew burning embers, but I've not heard anything from her in the last few days, her town is off the danger zone on the map and in my family, no news is good news. I'll be back later tonight with bigger update on all the little parts of my life you really need to know for your world to be fulfilled. :P I've decided I don't post enough of my art and photography here, so I'll give you some o' that. But now I eat and get dressed! Link 23 comments|Leave a comment

Parliment Question Time [Feb. 2nd, 2009|05:36 am] My Dad is going to be here in 3 hours to help me move house. WHY THE FUCK HAVE I NOT GONE TO BED?!!??!!! Link 13 comments|Leave a comment

Answer me these questions three....or more. [Jan. 26th, 2009|04:17 am] [ Current Mood | silly ] I felt like doing a stupid meme and nessachan provided! :D ( Google meme ) Also- meme thing times two! This time from my wonderful new faux internet girlfriend sunlightdances 1. Leave me a comment saying, 'interview me'. 2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions. 3. Update your LJ with the answers to the questions. 4.Include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post. 5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. My five questions given unto me: 1. Julian or Noel? [That's a Boosh question, sports fans.] JULIAN. I love Howard Moon and I don't care who knows it. Most people do though. Know it. *crush-cuddles him* 2. With the ingredients you have in your house now, and limitless energy, what meal would you make? Limitless energy huh? I'd wait till the sun came up and use it to cook the pies in the freezer. LOLOLOLOL. Ahh- science jokes. ;D that would prolly work too, since the sun here this week is A VOLCANIC BITCH. 3. Have you ever had a pet? Do you want a pet? Yes to both. I've had cats, dogs, chickens, birds, fish and a rooster who thought he was a dog. I still have a cat now (retired at Mum's house) but I would secretly love an Irish Wolfhound, or something similarly huge. Thinking about getting a budgie though. (WTF kind of compromise is that..!?) 4. What was the last book you read? Actually picked up and turned the pages of- Bleak House. Actually finished, Deathly Hallows, and the less said about that the better! (300 pages of camping.) 5. What song always makes you smile when you hear it? Fuck there are so many. I love the Austin Powers opening titles... Then there's Matt Berry's super-sexy hilarious 80s synth ballad 'One Track Lover' from Garth Marenghi's Darkplace: I also love Bonnie Tyler's Holding Out for a Hero because there's a stunning 1980s cartoon tribute using it on YouTube: DAMITT...even if the copyright Nazi's have removed the audio! Fear not however- just follow the link in the info sidebar to a working one. If you love the 80s and cartoons, this vid will make you grin from ear to ear and get all Bravehearty inside. I also love that song because there are two James May fanvids using it, and the idea of James as a street-wise Hercules makes me paralytic with mirth. XD HE'S SO NOT! And to end this post--- Mum emailed me the other day... I'M GOING TO ENGLAND IN DECEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!!! Look out all you repressed British gents- I'm about to spike your punch with GINGER! All you British flisters must offer me your couch immediately. Link 18 comments|Leave a comment

Fuckity fucksticks and a bag of clunking fuskers [Jan. 20th, 2009|04:35 pm] [ Current Mood | irritated ] [ Current Music | Jacob Groth- Islands ] SUMMER IHU 2009 started out as a little firecracker, but now it's turned into a raging volcano of erg. The weather is so crippling that I can't leave the house, so Etsy orders are sitting around waiting to be sent...and I hate that. I hate posting things late. The previous owner's legacy has revealed another layer- fleas. The recent humidity has given them perfect breeding conditions. We're both going away for a week on Thursday so we can bomb the place, but so far there's not alot I can do about them. I've put all the rugs outside (we have floorboards, so that's something at least) and vaccuumed, and I've been spraying my legs with orange oil, that helps keep them off- since it's too hot to wear socks and pants. My sleeping habits are worsening- the last 3 days I have gone to bed at 6-6:30am. It's not like I'm dog tired by then either- I'm bright-eyed right up until the moment I pass out. I just go to bed because I think I ought to, and because I know in a few hours it'll be hot and I'd like to be asleep for that. On top of all that I'm supposed to be moving most of my shit tomorrow and barely anything is packed, because it's too damn hot. My brain won't come to the table, I'm getting cranky and unreasonable and then I get cranky because I'm cranky and I don't want/need to be. I'm so apathetic about everything that I don't even care about the deadline of the magazine article- I've handed it in but I need to get her some pics, and the deadline is in 5 days. Ordinarily I'd be freaking out, but I can't seem to raise the care factor. I'M GOING TO BE IN AN INTERNATIONAL MAGAZINE. And I can't care about. THAT is fucked up. Welcome to your depression. -__________________________- On the upside, not being able to leave the house means I'm not spending any money, and makes saving for England alot easier. I will NOT being seeing this shit again, no more Aussie summer for me IT CAN GET FUCKING FUCKED. I'm moving to Scotland. Don't think I won't. Link 8 comments|Leave a comment

happiness is bad 60s art and touchy dreams... [Jan. 17th, 2009|07:21 pm] [ Current Mood | cheerful ] [ Current Music | Yello- Drive/Driven ] I are happy! Yesterday I went to the thrift for the first time in ages (thought I'd better strip the op shops of all the vintage before I move out!) and amongst many cool things wherein my arms did hurt from carrying it all (haven't had that much good score for months) Phoebe instructed me to 'look up' - and I saw her. ROSA! I used to have a 'zoom out' version of this girl, wrapped in a red cloth and posing in a tree in a swamp (like you do). I leant it to my friend Shara to brighten the walls of her empty house and when she moved SHE LEFT IT THERE. I could have murdered her. Instead I wept quietly, smashed a few spare plates I kept on hand for such an occasion and named my guitar after her. Notice please on viewing large- the price tag. TWO DOLLARS FIFTY MOFO'S!!! :D I would have paid twice that. Three times even. Someone has painted the edge of her frame white but that's okay. I love her soooo much! I'm trying to get back into colour and she's a perfect in-road; having a little colour around is cheering- I love my white/grey/black Dickens thing, but it can be a little isolating and scary sometimes (no doubt due to whatever psychological reasons propel me to it). Also something else of happy time, I finally had a James May dream! I expect it was the result of this birthday thread- which I had trouble coping with; it left me a bit of a jellied mess for a good 20 minutes. Look at it- I'm a mess again now, it's a good thing I wrote the entry first and then went looking for the link. JESUS. So all I have to do is soak my brain with pictures of him right before I go to bed. Not too much trouble. XD Anyway- I could tell you my dream at length, but I'm sure you'd all be very bored with my tale of hankies and irons and Stephen Fry, plus there's an awful lot of kissing, no one likes that. :P Link 14 comments|Leave a comment

Procrastination and the art of watching TV [Jan. 16th, 2009|12:23 am] [ Current Mood | quixotic ] Okay, so- I have this article by the horns I think, just need to get it down to the ground. I'm posting it under the cut so you chaps can have a read of it and tell me what's missing. I know there's something missing...I just can't seem to get there. It's a bit hard going on about your blog for 900 words..! ( The Lonely Mystery ) So- something is missing, y/y? Link 13 comments|Leave a comment

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